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RUTH 1:16 Olivia Bustion |
Picture two women sitting on a foot-bridge over a frozen pond in a South Hadley wood in January. her back on the truss, folds her knees to her chest, puffs a Swisher Sweet, asks:
"What does it mean, to believe? It seems to me that the New Testament writers see faith as a black-and-white thing: you're either in the light or not. What about a shadowy land-of-inquiry in between? I want a name for people who can't really identify as skeptics (because the light attracts them) or disciples (because they can't stand still in it). The Gospels call me to an unfollowable world."
& Chloe, watching worms of ice eat through leaves & crawl through vines knit to the bridge, says:
"In the New Testament the light is God. Standing in the light doesn't come through catechism and conviction; it takes struggle and practice. John says we experience the light by walking in it as Christ did. Pascal says that if you practice the faith you will find it to be true."
Ice-worms
"So faith isn't about epistemic confidence. It's a response to a story and to the communities that try to fit their lives to that story."
Vaulted pine-trees "When I have doubts, I take comfort in the fact that my confession is the work of the Holy Spirit. I can't reveal the nature of Christ to myself; I can only inquire, reason, listen, and pray."
Chloe paces the bridge's length & Olivia ashes her Swisher Sweet; Chloe flicks snow off her black Chucks & Olivia runs up behind her & kisses her & brushes snow out of her hair.
"Tell me I could still do this in the unfollowable world."
Ice-worms __ Pentimenti: Susan Bergman's Anonymity: The Secret Life of an American Family, Frank Bidart's "The Second Hour of the Night," and Stanley Hauerwas's Hannah's Child.
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